Just a Honeymoon

Sunday came, and it seemed like Amanda and Dawson would work out the stuff they needed to. Amanda saw her reflection on a mirror and realized that she cheated on Frank; her family was in a terrible position. Frank`s drinking problem and now this. She couldn’t deal with herself anymore so, Amanda and Dawson were headed back to Tuck`s. And there she was sitting in the porch, waiting. Evelyn. The tension only seemed to grow and grow. They had a serious mother-daughter talk, discussion, and fight, all at the same time. But it was for the good, Amanda realized this whole thing was a mistake and talked to Dawson. She said this weekend was like a honeymoon, beautiful, but it needed an end. She left. Dawson, not knowing what else to do, read the letter Tuck left for him. It didn’t said much, only that he needed to understand that Amanda needed time, and maybe even some more time. He left the letter at Tuck`s porch. Amanda read her letter too, which told a lovely story of Tuck and Clara. Before they knew it, Sunday was almost over, and both of them had lives waiting. Amanda was driving and thinking of Dawson until her phone rang. Apparently, her oldest son, Jared and her husband were on a serious car accident. Jared said he was fine, but Frank was not. 

Dawson was heartbroken all over again and Tuck`s letter did help a little. He talked like he was the father he wished we had, sweet, comforting and knowing how to cheer him up. He talked about their friendship, cars, Amanda and memories.

“Trust me when I say that memories are funny things. Sometimes they`re real, but other times they change into what we want them to be” (192).

The past, and memories, sometimes do hurt. They make us uncomfortable and we just want to change them, or picture a different scenario. Adjust the little things to make the puzzle fir our way. But it doesn’t work that way. People shouldn’t be based on memories, but rather facts. Memories are not always trustful.  

While Amanda read her letter, Tuck told her everything it had to do with his dead wife, Clara. He only saw her-or the image of her- because he wanted to. Our mind plays us games sometimes. 

That "I missed you hug"

“Clara wasn’t a ghost. Oh I saw her all right, and I heard her too. I am not saying those didn’t happen, because they did. (…) Love can conjure up many things, but deep down, I knew that she wasn’t really there. I saw her because I wanted to, I hear her because I missed her” (215).

Clara was Tuck`s creation, her image was the only way to keep him positive, and well even alive. While reading this part I couldn’t help but remember a quote from John Green’s wonderful novel, An Abundance of Katherines. The main character, Colin, was missing his ex-girlfriend and he reflected about it. “You can love someone so much. But you can never love people as much as you can miss them.”

Everything is so not going well; Amanda and Dawson have like no chance now. There is just so much going on. Dawson is going back to his boring Amandaless life and Amanda`s family is a lot of trouble. I know people say Nicholas Sparks is predictable in his novels I really, really, REALLY hope he doesn’t kill anybody.